Monday, June 28, 2010


"Never shall I forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours."

- Ludwig van Beethoven


Monday, June 21, 2010


  • a parking lot full of loud talkers
  • a used condom under a shoe
  • bathroom induced gagging
  • a 5 minute run
  • 2 "POPS"
  • a sneaker full of dog sh!t
     'NUFF SAID!

     (you JUST had to be there to appreciate this blog...)

Monday, June 14, 2010

"You have to live with the crashes, and hope you don't get into one."
Lance Armstrong

Sunday @ Hilton Falls has definitely achieved "PROCTER'S TOP 5" stature...My top 5 list, is an archived manifest of things I thought I would never do and yet managed to survive...essentially, the opposite of a BUCKET LIST. A BUCKET LIST is a list of things you want to do before you "kick the bucket"..."PROCTER'S TOP 5" is a perpetually streaming list of things I've done and lived to tell about...It's really more of an on going joke with my family and friends because I have a tendency to over react and to be a little melodramatic...Surprised? Allow me to put this list into perspective for is an example of an event that has made the TOP 5...When I was 23 I went through a really devastating break up... so ...instead of considering myself lucky and moving forward a stronger and smarter person... I decided to pack a bag, head  to the airport and buy a one way ticket to the Caribbean by myself...I came back a year and a half later.  Needless to say, any event that makes "PROCTER'S TOP 5" is a HUGE deal to me. Sunday, was a HUGE deal to me...and like I said Sunday made the list.
I spent the first part of the morning, which was the navigation training with Bryan , with my mouth shut and I'm pretty sure I didn't blink once...when I am feeling distress I fall silent...quiet Amy = panicked Amy. All of the navigation training had a sepia tone to it...NO black and white, not because Bryan wasn't doing a stellar job explaining himself but because navigation and geography are simply not one of my strengths. Right Shannon?
We were paired up and challenged to efficiently maneuver our way to 4 check points. and away we went. Keri and I biked to where we ( and all of the other teams) expected the 1st check point to be...we were in the VERY general vicinity of the intended mark and ultimately managed to locate it...with some help...and I have to tell you...I spend a fair amount of time with Susie, and I have NEVER, and I mean NEVER heard her drop the "F-bomb" as many times as I did during our scavenge for the red beach ball @ check point 1, and poor Shane, I can't even repeat the adjectives she used both before and after YOUR name ( said in the nicest possible way of course)...AND she has this most hilarious walk when she is's kind of like a march but sort of like a stomp...SO FUNNY!!! 
Keri and I decided to work backwards- head for check #4 next...awesome idea...lots of time to chat and enjoy the day as we headed in the completely WRONG direction TWICE! We eventually FOUND the falls and headed off in different directions, (which shouldn't surprise any of you if you have seen the video)  and off in the distance I heard " I FOUND IT!" Good job Keri! Back on our bikes we went to find the 3rd and 2nd check points. We successfully completed our task and had way too much fun doing it. By the time we reached the parking lot we had been in the forest for 90+ minutes...and it felt like 20...Thanks for a WICKED day! THANK YOU for reminding me that it is perfectly normal and perfectly natural to be scared when situated outside of my comfort zone...because as long as I can keep the rubber side's all good! Oh God...keeping the rubber side down...that's a whole other blog...Ninja Yee Ma OUT!

Sunday, June 6, 2010


The following is an excerpt from one of Susie's blogs copied from
January 26, 2010
This is our message:
•Be strong.
•Live with confidence in yourself and your decisions.
•Follow your passions.
•Maintain a healthy diet and regular exercise. Know what it feels like to be healthy and fit and the many ways it can improve your life and make it that much more amazing.
•Be exactly who you are. Love who you are. Love and take care of your body.
•Dream big and go for it.
•Be brave. Step out of your comfort zone to attain the life you desire.
•Be brave with love.
•Take the risk. Even though there is a chance you’ll fail. Failure builds character and knowledge.
•Live with integrity.
•Think positive, stay positive. Remove the negative out of your life.
•Be inspired every day, whether it is through working out, meditating…whatever helps you to stay inspired.
•Help each other and be kind and compassionate.
•Laugh at yourself.
•Know that anything is possible.
•Express yourself to those you love and care about. They are important to you-why not let them know and make them feel good?

Dear Susie,
Thank you for supporting me last night in the Moon in June.
Thank you for standing beside me at the starting line, and for the wicked hug right before I crossed the finish line!
Thank you for the pre workout laughs in the parking lot this morning!
Thank you for the skills you taught me this morning to improve my physical fitness.
Thank you for making me dig deeper when I was certain I was giving it all I had!
Thank you for being you and for helping me to be the best person I can be.

You are truly amazing!


Oh wait a sec. I guess I should say something about the actual bootcamp training this morning...

It was alright...I guess. :)

 Our body is a machine for living.
It is organized for that, it is its nature.
Let life go on in it unhindered and let it defend itself,
it will do more than if you paralyze it by encumbering it with remedies.
-Leo Tolstoy


Monday, May 31, 2010


Water is fluid, soft, and yielding. But water will wear away rock, which is rigid and cannot yield. As a rule, whatever is fluid, soft, and yielding will overcome whatever is rigid and hard. That which is soft is strong.

- Lao-Tzu (600 B.C.)

1991 was the last time I was anywhere near a canoe...I was at Algonquin Park and the canoe was used for storage, so our canoe training at Kelso was another "Amy in the headlights" moment for me (- very similar to our mountain bike training.) The weather was outstanding. I love, love , love the heat. I rarely get a chance to spend time outdoors when it is smokin' hot because I always have the total pleasure of being with my awesome, beautiful daughter and she is, understandably, not a lover of the heat. I am also completely amazed by the water. Water is a magnet for my imagination, for conscious pondering and subconscious dreams, thrills, and fears. I can stare into moving water and be completely captivated much like when when gazing into a camp fire,  so,  being taught the safe and effective ways to move across the water in a canoe was phenomenal. I also was able to spend the afternoon and make memories with Shannon...who is one wicked chick! We paddled from one end of Kelso to the other, learned to turn our boat without "taking the scenic route " and battled head to head with the other girls in a few friendly competitions. All so good!
I watched the canoeing video today...every time I watch a new weeks training video I sit with my daughter and we watch it together. I explain every little detail to her , tell her who is who and we discuss the importance of safety, team work and make tons plans for the future when she is a little bit older to try all of these wicked disciplines together. After we watched the video from yesterday, she looked up at me with her pure and innocent hazel eyes and said..."I'm so proud of you Mommy" even if I don't win this contest...believe me I've already won!
                                            I love you Izzy!

Friday, May 21, 2010

"This is no time for ease and comfort. It is the time to dare and endure." - Winston Churchill

This particular training had been a long time coming...and NOW I understand why. Anything less than the perfect conditions could result in disaster and Thursday was anything but a disaster. Mother Nature totally had her game face on and gave us the go ahead with our mountain bike training at Lions Valley. CRAZY! We pulled into the parking lot where the team was meeting and it became all too obvious that this was so not Kansas anymore...I forgot my ruby slippers, my DRY ruby slippers, so clicking my heels 3 times and going home was out of the question. I was delighted to see Susie. I find strength and composure just being in her presence. And, she was the only one who I let know how truly intimidated I was of the bike training...and...guess what she did...she my face (in a good way)...AND YOU KNOW WHAT? Just seeing her laugh (even at me) made me laugh, and shake, and then I barfed in my mouth a little. We had a lesson on the basics of shifting gears, suspension and handling curbs, then a warm up and away we went. We were on our bikes for maybe " 50 meters" when sweet Szerenka bravely attempted to jump her first curb and was thrown right over her handle bars...I laugh now, because I know she is okay but at the time I was just beside myself...I have NEVER been mountain biking and in the first 3 minutes I see Szerenka go flying past me WITHOUT her bike...Ok. Really? I am so outside of my comfort zone at this point that I just stood their for a brief moment thinking to myself..."and this is supposed to be the easy stuff!?! Oh I am SO screwed" The next challenge was learning how to handle a steep incline...but to get up the hill you must first go down. I managed to get down the hill and 3/4 of the way up the first time, and then it was Keri's turn. OMG! Again, I laugh because she survived, but seriously!? I have never seen a wipe out like that...she was like the ball in the pinball machine, and yet, she got up and laughed...BRAVO KERI! We were then escorted safely down the valley and onto some relay racing- which was amazing. This gave me a little glimpse into what AR actually feels like...Sorry Sharon. We then followed a trail along the river- and...I fell. And that's okay! I totally expected to completely buff out at some point and to land on thick grass and mud was just fine by me! At the end of this trail was a bend in the was actually a really beautiful sight...we were challenged to cross the river carrying our bikes to win a SUUNTO heart monitor. I applaud both SHARON and NEIL for getting more than their shoes wet during this challenge and I hope you are both feeling okay today. Riding back up the valley was a trick. SHANNON was able to do it not only once, but twice. I look forward to seeing your new sneaks Shan! The ride home was awesome! It was just reaching dusk and I felt really thankful for having been given the chance to be so far outside of my comfort zone I couldn't even see it...I think it was about "50 meters"away...

Sunday, May 16, 2010

TrailAR Park Girls

(yes, yes...I know- it's trailER...but for the purpose of this blog it is spelled TrailAR)

I typically don't think about my blogs...when the opportunity presents itself I sit down @ my computer and fill the page with words...secretly hoping that they make sense. People say that I often write how I speak, so ...put on your best Amy voice and carry on...READY?
WOW ... today was totally UNBELIEVABLE, FANTASTIC, AMAZING! So much so, that when I thought about blogging, I was feeling slightly petulant...not because I didn't want to share my thoughts with you about today's AR training, but because putting it down on paper takes away some of the magic, losing some of it's enchantment. THAT is how AWESOME it was...
Trail running @ Kelso today was mostly single track...we were instructed by Susie to go @ our own pace...make it our own...(maybe I just made that up but I'm pretty sure I kept  hearing her say that over and over in my head.)  We covered various terrains and covered a number of different trails...SO WICKED!  All of the girls did SO WELL!  Once again, Sharon rocked her run in her blue jeans...which still to this day totally astounds me...Susie spent time running and chatting with each of us individually. sharing words of encouragement and amusing anecdotes. Who does that? Oh right...Susie does, because that is how committed and caring she is. OK, Beverly-Ann... Helllo??? You slayed those put one foot in front of the other and kept moving forward! BRAVO! You should be so proud of yourself!  I didn't want to stop trail running today. Mother Nature was totally on board and there was this crazy energy amongst the team that was almost palpable. Being with the "TrailAR Park Girls" today gave me momentum to be the best Amy I could be today...and that is what life is all about...I know, I know- this turned out way  more sugary than I expected...hmmm...maybe that is why I have welts the size of grapes all along my hair line and ears...I don't know WTF kind of little asshole insect that was that kept biting me but at least I know why... because you ladies exude sweetness, and I ...attract bugs.  Thanks for the awesome memories we made today! MUAH!
Now stop talking like are freakin' me out!